It literally feels like God is pissing on my life at the moment, and at the same time he's trying to draw pictures with his piss on it.

Dear Finals,

Finals...we need to talk. So, let me be frank with you. In all honesty, I actually hate you. Yeah, people are telling me to stick with you to the end, because in the long term, I'll appreciate you and what you've done for me. But, as of right now; I fucking hate you. I don't want to be with you anymore. I do not want to have you constantly on my mind. I don't want to come home, and have you abuse me in every aspect (verbally, mentally, and physically). You make me sick (in both ways). You keep me up at night, when I don't want to be soliciting with you. I no longer wish to do incessant tasks and chores that you make me do and eventually drive me up the wall with insanity and frustration. Stop affecting my social life. Because of your greedy and needy ass, I no longer have friends or anything remotely close to a social life. You just want want want want want and WANT MORE of me and my time. I'm sick of you judging me and telling me how stupid or how much more I have to learn in life. Please, since I can not simply walk out on you, PLEASE just leave. Do us both a favor, and leave and stop wasting both of our times.

Never yours truly,

Amy

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i needed to get that out.

it's only a portion, but we're going to have to leave it at that for now.

maybe a nice update later ==;

i seriously feel like i've been on my period for like two months straight.

WHAT IS THIS.
so irritable everyday, unless i'm munching on a brownie or 15-second microwaved strawberry pop-tart -salivates-

so today's post is just going to be a ranting-bitching-complaining post...sorry for the bitterness.

it's definitely been killing me and irritating me nonstop. been kinda biting off other peoples heads too and what not :/ not fly. and i don't mean to blegh but i can't help it sometimes i just snap...

so the weather's been just freaking awesome. ....thehell. it was like 60 degrees last week, and then it SNOWED this weekend, like are you serious? make up your MIND MOTHER NATURE.

my face is just disgusting at this point. dry and just acne is blowing up in random spots. probably stimulated because of the stress that's lately been shit on me for like the past two weeks (and the next few weeks are just gonna be fantastic)

god i wish chemistry would just die. painfully and very slowly. but then again maybe quickly..so i can be rid of it asap.

ridiculous homework dude. sucks. last lecture was probably one of the few that i actually managed to stay awake for the entire lecture. the professor's voice is not even monotone or anything, it's just...soothing. friggin puts you right to sleep. and the seats are actually pretty comfortable....sigh whatever...

iono dude i'm just sick of chem, and the homework questions we have to do, and the recitations, and the quizzes, and the four hour labs, and pre-labs, and post-labs, and online quizzes, and online assessments, and PTEs, and all of their bullshit.
yeah just drop it right?
sigh I CAN'T...it's a requirement for my pre-med track so i kinda have no choice at this point. and not only do i have to take chemistry and deal with it's bullshit, but also ace the fuckin' courses.

my program, can suck my dick.
there is a ridiculous amount of reading to do. and not just any reading. PHILOSOPHY. which i actually find quite interesting surprisingly but we're doing MEDIEVAL philosophy. are you serious?
are people not satisfied with just eating, sleeping, shitting, and fucking each other? is that not sufficient enough for them?

that's a rather ignorant comment, yeah, knowing the 'truth' of life and what not should be compelling and etc. and knowing about eternal law comprehensively and the difference between natural law and divine intellect and knowledge, and blahbalhabldsgasjdkg

i'm only really complaining about this subject...medieval philosophy..it's just..so boring. but WE'RE MOVING ON! so no more medieval philosophy hoorahs.

cultural foundations class isn't so bad though. the literature during the medieval times were rather interesting :D very poetic, lyrical, and sexual?
damn but really people back in the day were HORNdogs.

omg i just got the worst craving for strawberries and cream -drool-
i had them in london when i went to wimbledon. oh my goodness gracious me.

THEY LOOK LIKE THEY'RE ABOUT TO BURST IN STRAWBERRY JUICE GOODNESS.

i seriously felt like i was eating strawberries for the first time again. it was amazing. and that's an understatement.
i think i had like 5 bowls in one sitting (only five because they were expensive...)

sigh always got food on my mind. ridiculous.

oh yeah i got a rice cooker in my dorm LOL yeah i can't do without korean food T-T

oh and speaking of things i got recently, ALSO got tickets for Benny Benassi and Dash Berlin!!!!
it's on a friday and saturday in the same week LOL i'm going to die but it's ok hopefully will be worth it!!!
also trying to get tickets for DayGlow ): they got sold out today though...praying for a second day event hopefully?!?!?! 

i actually feel happier now that i'm thinking about food, this is sad.
a true sign of a fat ass. sigh

but i'll end this here for today (:

hope y'all are having a better week than i am lmao
counting down the days of spring break! and trying not to think about midterms.. 

and here are a few fuzzy comics to appease for my irritable comments earlier:

incredible how spring semester didn't even start yet, but i already want to strangle myself and kill something soft and cute.

thank you NYU for making my life a living hell. again. for another happy LOVELY semester.

life is too good.

oh did i mention that on top of the 50G+ that this school is making me pay, they want me to pay for some stupid A.I. program that is 'supposed' to help me learn for another $40. essentially, they summed up what it would do for us and all that bullcrap.
BASICALLY, it's the semester's class put in a nutshell in this little program.

great. so actually i really didn't need to pay the thousands of dollars to learn about molecules and polarity, and only the 40 bucks for this program.

right. great.

booklist is daunting as always.
and expensive.. 

a lot of authors that i can't really pronounce. so i know i can look forward to it --

well on the brightside i got to have my last kickbutt korean bbq in jersey:

hoooooooyes. 

but there are good things in life too.
can't always look at life pessimistically.

you'll probably go insane.
which is probably why i'm about to lose my mind.

plus i've had a sore throat for a week straight now...
i looked at my tonsils the other day and they look like i have friggin tumors growing on them.

can't swallow anything without cringing.
feels like i'm swallowing a porcupine.

well today's an obviously go happy day.

T-T there was a disturbed concert today that i kinda wanted to go to :d i bought tickets for a good friend of mine and he's having a blasttttttttttttttttt. lucky hoe.

but uh i'm just counting down the days for ezoooooooooooo
who's with me?!

well good luck everyone on your spring semester :D
let's try our best, and hope our gpa's don't plummet into a shit hole. 

that's how long i've been schooled.
probably more if i count all the times i needed to go to hakwon (cram-school) after real school.

and then there's graduate school.
for me hopefully medical school.

oh yay what internships?
oh yay what residency?

oh great. cool. more schooling.

in the long run it's supposed to be worth it right?

but all those years, don't you feel like you'd be wasting them away?
not 'living life', whatever that may be... ==

of course i'm writing this blog instead of writing my essay that's due in 11 hours.

and of course, without fail, i am yet again craving food.
rather simple today.

i want cup ramen.
that's all i could ask for.
with kimchi.

you know when the person you like tells you that they don't like you or pretty much shits on your life?
that's how my stomach just felt when looking at that picture.

sigh.

if i was reincarnated, i was definitely a fat mofo in my past life.
like the one's that need a crane to lift them up.
like the one's that loses the remote control of their tv and finds it under their fupa (fat upper pussy area) four months later
like the one's that loses their dog and assumed that they ran away but actually they just sat on the dog and it got stuck under the flaps of your flapper arms.

question of the day: what's your opinion about school?

as of right now..
FUCK IT